Golden Tabby Tiger WIP?

It's really difficult for me to enjoy it nowadays, and I usually have to force myself to finish anything. I mostly doodle, scrap, start a new one, doodle, scrap etc etc.
I don't know why I feel this way, it probably have something to do with my depression, artblock and rock-bottom self-esteem... When people compliment my art I seriously can't even say thank you anymore, I just sink down behind my shoulders and cover up my drawings.
A guy in my class tried to start a conversation with me about my drawings. He complimented me for my wolves, big cats and buffalo (lolwut) and asked if I could design the new tattoo he is getting (in a joking kind of way, more like if I had the skills to, not that he'd actually have my crap permanent on his arm</3) and I kinda just sat there and blushed my face off and hid and scrapped the pieces of paper in my hands and kinda broke down.
I don't know what's wrong with me, seriously? I'd love to make him a tattoo design damnit ;n; I guess it's my lack of social skills sneaking in there. I can't talk to anyone I don't know well without blushing .-.
It's so embarrassing 'cause I don't like him that way but I blushed anyway and gaaaahhhh Dx *TeenageGirlMuchYes.*
Jokes aside, I'm so insecur about my art I rarely ever show anyone. In 100 sketches I chose to show you this one, 'cause I feel like it's the least crappy. I'm slowly dropping drawing for good, every day that passes without drawing anything my skills grow rusty and stiff and gah, no matter how hard I try it's only getting worse, and I honestly see no improvement at all...
I can still finish drawings of chibis, but I hate drawing them so badly right now I scrapped all of them to never be touched again Dx
God, depression sucks so hard </3

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